Defeated

Often times when I lay down to sleep at night, a phenomenon occurs.

It happens when I'm in that early sleep stage when I'm talking to myself. Often times I'll think of something that needs a long and intricate explanation like a philosophical analysis of "The Big Lebowski".

After my mind has released from my grasp, but before I'm in full sleep mode, is when the magic happens.

Brilliant musical and lyrical ideas are flying around in my brain. Most often when I enter this euphoric dream music state, I compose a completely original song in my head complete with lyrics and guitar solos and harmonized horn parts and catchy drum beats. And I hear this complete song, written in real mental time in my brain, and think "THIS IS AMAZING".

Now, most of you are thinking "GREAT!, wake up and write this down."
I have a notepad and pen conveniently placed next to my bed for this exact reason.

However, 1 of 2 things happens.

1 - My mind fades farther into dream land, and I'm unable to stir and document what I just heard in my head. Thus the song is lost in my head forever.

or

2 - I wake up and write the entire song down note for note. I grab my guitar and the song flows out of me onto the paper and triumphant joy rushes through me.


But, my brain is so fantastical that option number 2 never actually occurs.


Instead...


I FUCKING HAVE DREAMS OF WRITING THESE SONGS DOWN!

Vivid High Def dreams with Dolby 5.1 Surround Sound of me going "YESSS, I got it! I finally got a great song." Then, upon awaking, I would deflate and reality would set in. Another great tune lost because I had dreamt of writing it down.

And so here I sit, waiting for that inspiration to come to me that will let me compose the brilliance that I know my subconscious is capable of.